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Waking from Dreams by Tyshea Waking from Dreams by Tyshea

I’ve been dating Bee for 5 years now, and about 2 years into our relationship when I was still in college, my mom found out about our relationship. She was furious and ended up telling my dad too. I was almost thrown out of my house and disowned, but one way or another, it didn’t come to pass.

A couple years followed where I pretty much cut off communication from my parents and secretly continued seeing my partner. My brothers found out eventually, and though it was rocky, they both came around to my identity and we slowly rebuilt our relationships.

Since I met Bee online, I’ve only visited her twice: once last year for Christmas (which was a secret from my entire family), and this previous Thanksgiving trip (which my brothers helped with).
I’d been lying to my parents since they found out, claiming that I broke ties with “that girl,” but after this last trip to Bee’s, I felt the lies couldn’t continue anymore. Especially with my brothers getting dragged down with my constant dishonesty, it weighed on me too much…and I decided to confront my mom about it again.

I already had a feeling she was playing dumb— mothers like her can always tell when their kids are lying— and sure enough she told me she knew.
She said “I honestly didn’t want to talk about it ever again. If I was to be very frank with you, I think it’s shameful. But maybe I’m just old-fashioned, and if you won’t change… then I’ll have to change. I may never come around to accepting this relationship, but unlike your father, I would never not want you as my daughter.
Just don’t do anything stupid.”

She promised that next year, after she returns from Taiwan (and if my dad is still out of town for work) she’d like to meet her.


For anyone curious about the lyrics, it’s an old Mandarin song that my mom would sing a lot when I was a kid. I was helping her shop for holiday gifts yesterday and it came on in the car. Hearing her sing it again, I knew I couldn’t run away anymore.

The singer is addressing someone who just went through a bad break up, but in a different context, I’ve always associated it with my relationship and how rejected I felt from everyone else— especially family.
Hearing her sing…well I don’t know if she meant to, but I felt like it was her way of saying “it will be okay”

"Waking from Dreams" by Sarah Chen


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ShadowHawk137 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That actually answers a lot of questions I had about your work when looking through it. Thank you very much for sharing this about yourself. Being unconventional is never easy, although I wouldn't know anything about what you've gone through. It must be hard to be with someone you hardly ever see. I've just recently had to make a change to a long-distance relationship, and it's definitely been a strain. I wish you the best in your life, hope you can reconcile with those who've alienated themselves from you, and I'm really looking forward to new material from you!
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Haha yeah, lots of similar themes in my projects and stories!
Thanks a lot though man, happy to have your kind words and support :)
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ShadowHawk137 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Writing's a very therapeutic thing, isn't it? I really helps you express pent up feelings in ways you may not even realize. And you are most certainly welcome. :happybounce: 
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KogasGurl Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Just absolutely beautiful
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you! :)
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TheFlamingZebra Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love so much that you have shared this with us Nafisah. Thank you.

This is absolutely beautiful. I'm sorry I don't know what else to say to this one. 
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Cait dear, there isn't much to say and there's no need either
I just wanted to share to...I guess give some hope for similar situations.
Thanks for all your love and support though, it means more than you probably know
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PyonInc Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2014   General Artist
I'm not sure how else to say it but I think this piece is beautiful and stunning.

Thanks so much for sharing a tidbit of you and your mom, Ty. c:
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much! :blushes:
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SingolDarkwood Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013
I'm glad to hear it's reached an equilibrium of sorts. I hope the trend of positive response continues for you two. 

Love ya both,

Siggy
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