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Waking from Dreams by Tyshea Waking from Dreams by Tyshea

I’ve been dating Bee for 5 years now, and about 2 years into our relationship when I was still in college, my mom found out about our relationship. She was furious and ended up telling my dad too. I was almost thrown out of my house and disowned, but one way or another, it didn’t come to pass.

A couple years followed where I pretty much cut off communication from my parents and secretly continued seeing my partner. My brothers found out eventually, and though it was rocky, they both came around to my identity and we slowly rebuilt our relationships.

Since I met Bee online, I’ve only visited her twice: once last year for Christmas (which was a secret from my entire family), and this previous Thanksgiving trip (which my brothers helped with).
I’d been lying to my parents since they found out, claiming that I broke ties with “that girl,” but after this last trip to Bee’s, I felt the lies couldn’t continue anymore. Especially with my brothers getting dragged down with my constant dishonesty, it weighed on me too much…and I decided to confront my mom about it again.

I already had a feeling she was playing dumb— mothers like her can always tell when their kids are lying— and sure enough she told me she knew.
She said “I honestly didn’t want to talk about it ever again. If I was to be very frank with you, I think it’s shameful. But maybe I’m just old-fashioned, and if you won’t change… then I’ll have to change. I may never come around to accepting this relationship, but unlike your father, I would never not want you as my daughter.
Just don’t do anything stupid.”

She promised that next year, after she returns from Taiwan (and if my dad is still out of town for work) she’d like to meet her.


For anyone curious about the lyrics, it’s an old Mandarin song that my mom would sing a lot when I was a kid. I was helping her shop for holiday gifts yesterday and it came on in the car. Hearing her sing it again, I knew I couldn’t run away anymore.

The singer is addressing someone who just went through a bad break up, but in a different context, I’ve always associated it with my relationship and how rejected I felt from everyone else— especially family.
Hearing her sing…well I don’t know if she meant to, but I felt like it was her way of saying “it will be okay”

"Waking from Dreams" by Sarah Chen


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lilfixit Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm glad that your mom is trying to change.
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ShadowHawk137 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That actually answers a lot of questions I had about your work when looking through it. Thank you very much for sharing this about yourself. Being unconventional is never easy, although I wouldn't know anything about what you've gone through. It must be hard to be with someone you hardly ever see. I've just recently had to make a change to a long-distance relationship, and it's definitely been a strain. I wish you the best in your life, hope you can reconcile with those who've alienated themselves from you, and I'm really looking forward to new material from you!
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Haha yeah, lots of similar themes in my projects and stories!
Thanks a lot though man, happy to have your kind words and support :)
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ShadowHawk137 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Writing's a very therapeutic thing, isn't it? I really helps you express pent up feelings in ways you may not even realize. And you are most certainly welcome. :happybounce: 
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KogasGurl Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Just absolutely beautiful
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you! :)
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TheFlamingZebra Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love so much that you have shared this with us Nafisah. Thank you.

This is absolutely beautiful. I'm sorry I don't know what else to say to this one. 
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Cait dear, there isn't much to say and there's no need either
I just wanted to share to...I guess give some hope for similar situations.
Thanks for all your love and support though, it means more than you probably know
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PyonInc Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2014   General Artist
I'm not sure how else to say it but I think this piece is beautiful and stunning.

Thanks so much for sharing a tidbit of you and your mom, Ty. c:
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much! :blushes:
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SingolDarkwood Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013
I'm glad to hear it's reached an equilibrium of sorts. I hope the trend of positive response continues for you two. 

Love ya both,

Siggy
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks so much Sig, I'm hoping for the best too! :)
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TMorey64 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Inspiring! :)
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you! :)
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TMorey64 Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome! :)
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Traumkratzer Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013
Without much ado, I'll take all that is inside this work and imprint the words into my mind.
Thank you very much for sharing.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
And thank you for reading :heart:
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Shinobigami Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
wow, this is so, so powerful and stunning. i'm nearly speechless

i can tell you [as well as two of you] have had long and hard road just because you've chosen to be together and how you've chosen your life to be, but i'm really glad your mother has decided that she wants to share it with you, congratulations <3
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much :blushes:
The road will probably be hard for a while still, but progress is progress, and I'm really proud of my mom (and bee, for sticking by me all this time)
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Shinobigami Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
you'ew very welcome :iconmonkeyloveplz:
exactly! that's all that matters right now, i'm proud of you all! <3
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PolandWire Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2013  Student General Artist
/feels. It's nice to hear stories of strength and growth like that. Congrats TyBee
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you :)
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hubadawaha Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I don't even know what to say other than I hope your family continues to come around.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Don't need to say much other than that, honestly! Thank you so much :blushes:
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amanda-zilla Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Absolutely stunning. Honestly love the art and your story is painfully beautiful. I truly wish for everything to work out for you and your family and partner.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much :blushes:
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HeavenMGN Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Aw. That made me tear up. 
I'm happy you could get that off your chest. 
You must be pretty damn strong to hold that for so many years. 
It's so touching that your mother could change that way. 
I wouldn't be so fortunate. 
I hope it gets better with your dad and your mother likes her. :) 
I don't see how someone couldn't like her. 
And Merry Christmas from me too. :b 
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Haha, I don't know about strong, but maybe desperate? I see it more like an act of survival than anything else XD

But thanks so much for the good wishes, I'll probably need it.
Merry Christmas!
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lostkingdom Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glade your that your mum and brother's are backing you up on your relationship with Ai-Bee and I hope and pray that your dad will come around in the near future.  Merry Christmas by the way :hug:
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much! I'm hoping for the same :)
Happy Holidays!
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lostkingdom Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
your welcome:hug:
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Me-NoNe Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
oh, dear...! Gotta say, I kinda cried eading it... I know how huge this step is, and how relieving it must feel to finaly talk to your mother. And I'm just so glad abut how it all gon right... I mean, I don't even kow you, but Im such a fan of you and Bee...>< 
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Even if you don't "know" us, we both really love seeing your comments and appreciate all your support!
Sorry for making you cry, but thank you so much!
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Me-NoNe Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
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oh, dear...
dont be sorry, dear... just wanna say... My family is not the "tradicional" kind, I mean, they never seemed to have prejudices, even then, when I told them I was in love with a girl and stuff... was  pretty much a hard time, my mom really saw me as a disappointment and shame and all that stuff... Time passed and today she just loves my girl too, and they became pretty close, somehow...

so, thingslowly change, and soon, I hope, she will be able to meet Bee and understand why you like her so... I'm sure this talk was a good beginning... And wish many more to come, only for good. 
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I'm really happy to hear about your mom coming around to your relationship, even if it was rocky at first.
Hopefully things will turn out that way for me too..eventually! :blushes:
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Me-NoNe Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
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I hope that too^^
have a happy ne year^^!
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iamtherainbow Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I'm very sorry that you've had to deal with all of that but I'm glad that you're in a relationship with a person that makes you happy.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
No need to be sorry! It's just life :)
Thank you so much though, she definitely makes me happy haha!
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iamtherainbow Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Great! :3
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lndzbrdn Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
well fuck i'm crying
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
sorry to make you cry! ;//v//;
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lndzbrdn Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
s' okayyy ._.
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LennethKeen Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013
Fuck, you made me cry and never even had this kind of problem. I was always the person standing in the back to help friends that went through this kind of situation.

This year, middle of March, a friend called me, crying, asking to pick her up because her parents finally found out she was dating a girl, and they didn't even gave her a chance to explain her side of the story, they simply told her to get out of their house and give the car's key back. It was the day before her birthday. She lived with me for the next 8 or 9 months, until she managed to stand by herself. The first month was a living hell, her whole family kept calling just to tell what a disgrace she was, that she shouldn't put her selfish needs before her family's. Her (father's side) grandmother was the first to accept, she even googled it to see that homosexuality wasn't a disease and she didn't choose to be that way. We can just hope her parents will stop being so religiously blind and accept her as the wonderful person she is.

Now she's adopted a hedgehog, has a steady job, girlfriend comes to visit every weekend. She's happy, that's what matters.

*now I'll stop the rambling*
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
It's really crazy what time can do, you know? If you would've asked me a year ago if I thought I could keep staying with my family, I would've said "no way"
I'm really happy that things turned out pretty well for your friend, even if the parents are out of the picture. Sometimes happiness is found miles away from the nest

Wish her good luck for me, if it's not too awkward :)
Thanks for sharing!
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Sutsuki-Sensei Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013
I can't believe i put off reading this. I love your style and Ai-Bee's style so much. Your more emotional pieces are just so beautifully done that it is darn near painful to read. This is one of those pieces. As for your mama, I am glad that she is coming along, for your sake, and I hope your dad does the same.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
haha, take your time reading my stuff! It's not like they're going anywhere X)
I really hope my dad comes along eventually too. Thank you so much for your support man :heart:
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Sutsuki-Sensei Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013
Ah, you're most certainly welcome. Hopefully, some day,it'll just be a thing that nobody really cares about. I mean, if you're happy, by all means, be happy. Why should it bother anyone else?
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Ask---RainbowRaver Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013
Amazing
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you :heart:
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theMEOWWWW Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2013
these aren't tears.... my eyes are just sweating...
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