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.Stand Up. by Tyshea .Stand Up. by Tyshea
Today is April 23, and my 23rd birthday.
I feel like I’ve been waiting my whole life for this year, 23 has always been a number that stuck out to me.
And this song, “23” by Jimmy Eat World, continues to be one of those songs I turn to when I feel lost.

Today is my birthday, and I want to come clean about a lot of things.

I drew this picture as a follow up to this one, if you guys remember:


“Fall Down” was drawn during a really hard time for me— when my parents found out about Bee and threatened to throw me out and disown me. It ended up not happening due to a lie I told through my teeth… but a part of me broke that day.
I drew it because I felt like my sky had fallen.
I was raised with a pretty old-school mindset, to honor thy parents and such, and in many ways I felt mentally inferior and subjugated to them.
Their rejection was something I always feared in the back of my mind (especially when it came to my sexuality and gender expression), but to feel unwanted by these miniature gods of my household was still a shock to me.
Though maybe it was less of a shock than it was the crashing of a disaster I prayed would not come.

I know this is a really depressing story to post on my birthday, but I drew this new piece as a way to mark my growth and my healing.
A part of me may have died that day, but Bee has always called me a phoenix.

I came to terms with my parents’ love. Understanding that it wasn’t 100% like people lead you to believe.. I had to divorce myself from their love and make my own, and that love came from deep within myself.

23 is a song about picking yourself up, a time to change.

And if I could go back in time to talk to my younger self, that scared, hurt, and broken me, I would tell her it’d be okay someday.
That healing is possible.

It's amazing what 3 years can do.

Happy birthday, Naf.
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SassyRaptor Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student Filmographer
So intense and powerful! What words! ;_; I really love those silhouettes, as well, with those lightning-like patterns.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Ahh, thank you :')
Yeah, the lightning was kind of to connect it to the previous piece <3
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SassyRaptor Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student Filmographer
You are most welcome! ^.^

Ahh, I see! o:
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NerdPonders Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013
I am so proud of you. That may sound weird considering i don't know you in real life but i can't help it ^^ I wish you and Bee all of the best and the most amazing future!
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
It's not weird at all, that means a lot to me :blushes:
thank you!
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Corgi-Dawg Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
Oh my...
This is such a strong piece that actually made me cry :(

But, Knowing that a wound will heal anyway, It made me feel happy in the end :)
Rejection has been a fear of mine, but when I told my friends about me being Bi, they all thought it was awesome having a semi gay friend XD Also my sister and mother has accepted me nonetheless :)

... lol sorry for Rambling, anywaaaay, This is still a very emotional piece, Very brave for posting it on your birthday too! :)
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Tyshea Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Naw, no problems on rambling, I'm really happy that it made you happy in the end :')
And I'm really glad that your mom and sister accept you now

Thank you so much!
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Corgi-Dawg Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013
Thank you miss :)
I am glad too, Hopefully you're okay with your parents too :)

Most welcome miss!
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2otaku Featured By Owner May 12, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
LOL... I am really late to the party too....
Be strong, it gets better. It really does.
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Tyshea Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Haha, no worries at all. I hardly ever mind "late" comments :)
Thank you so much! I honestly think things have already gotten better at this point <3
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